[New direction in life since last we spoke]
It's growing, I think. That amazing bump, slowly but surely. I hope.
In my 13th week now, going on 14th in two days. And, the feeling that there's life growing inside of me is still oddly wonderful. Hearing another heartbeat that isn't mine inside of my body is awe-inspiring. That God has created a new breathing life.
I feel genuinely happy for friends and family who tell me they are expecting but it's not until you are on the same boat that you truly understand the depth of happiness & reality of the situation; it rocks you a certain way that you've never felt before.
I'm trying not to worry too much albeit my worry habits. I dream dreams that I shouldn't be dreaming at times as if I'm almost afraid of something. Perhaps it's just jitters, or a first-time mom-to-be thing. Just need to breathe, be healthy for the wee one and pray that God will look over him/her.
